Tuesday, July 20, 2010


Today has been a day of days. I keep thinking about all that has happened, so I am writing it here to make sense of it all.

Ollie is going thru a major jealousy phase, and I am reaching for patience I never knew I had. I think I told him "no" today more than anything else, and that makes me sad. Its so hard to give 100% to two different children, and I hope they are not suffering because of it. At least at the end of the day, all is forgiven and he goes to bed happy.

We had our very last appointment at the Birth Center today. Ever. I have been really emotional about it all day, because the women there are so amazing, and have given me the chance to have the births I wanted and needed. There was no way I could have had such an experience in a hospital, not to mention the connection our little family has with them now. Thank you midwives, for all the love and care you have given us the past three years, bringing our two babies into the world!

We have also decided that we are officially done having kids. Yikes, that's a scary thing to put out there, but its what we both want. I am a little sad to know that the excitement of pregnancy and births are done, but also SO relieved. No one tells you about the hard parts, and there are so so many, if I am going to be honest here. I am excited to have my self back, and really start being a mom!

And the most exciting thing...Ben was offered an awesome new job today, which he accepted! For him its a great change of pace in a company that is big enough that he can move up in. The benefits and salary arent bad either ;) We have always struggled with money, but this will be just enough to give us some relief, and another step towards owning a home someday, and getting something into our savings account- hopefully. I am so proud and happy for him! He does so much to take care of us, and I am very grateful! I love you, my love!

I will leave you with the cuteness that is our little bean, 7 weeks old, and 10lbs 10oz! She is getting so big!


  1. I hear you. You are doing a GREAT job. It's amazing how quickly they do forgive and are ready to start new with a smile.

    Congratulations on the new job Ben!

  2. Hugs Leanne! You are such an amazing mama and Ollie and Eva are so lucky to have you and Ben as parents. You're doing a great job! Congrats again to Ben on the new job, I'm so happy for you guys.